Important Update: Please Read

Apr 2, 201213 min read

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Published: Apr 2, 2012

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Dear Watchers!~
I would like to thank you all, old and new, for your patience with me seeing as how I rarely update or post. I posted some more of the White Day shoot to hold you over until I have something new. I STILL need to go back and finish re-uploading those first images and files....I'm just so lazy and used to using my new computer that I forget I have my other one, but I will get around to it eventually...And on the note of 'eventually' I would like to give you my important update.

Important people such as best friends and people I talk to at least once a month or once every blue moon might want to read this...sorry it's really long and that I didn't send anything personal I just wanted everyone to be able to see this just in case.:

Just a heads up, I might be taking some time away from the internet, I'm not sure if I will and not allot of people talk to me on here and I rarely check dA or Tumblr so it shouldn't be too much of a problem. Mainly I think I might just keep my browser and Skype down for a couple of days, so if it's an emergency and you have my number you can text me first, then call me depending on you know...how extreme and dire the emergency is, other than that if I don't reply or answer don't be alarmed....I'm just kind of having some issues right now that I feel like I need to work out and the more internet access and contact with people I have the worse the problems seem to be, it's not like some mass amount of drama between me and anyone, it's mostly just me getting my feelings hurt too easily, reading things wrong or just my own insecurities building up to a unhealthy high pushing my self esteem to a low. This is not a cry for attention or pity...I'm simply letting you guys know. I'm one to post cryptic and whiny things without thinking, and that needs to stop...It's an old habit and makes me look as though I AM looking for pity / attention when I'm in no way meaning to....And I have a feeling if I don't stay away from the internet I'm going to push it and only make people worry more, or stop caring all together, which allot of people probably already have, once again not like a woe is me thing, just a wow, I realized I'm a whiny bitch and it's no wonder people look at me the way they do....So yeah. Dx

Sorry to rant and rave and carry on, I think this might just end up being what's best......but the times I've tried to boycott the internet before it's never gone very well. And it's mostly because a lack of communication makes me depressed but I'm depressed either way these days so I might as well take the cutting everyone off for a little while to think rather than, keeping up what I'm doing and have all my decisions influenced by emotions and other people. Just as far as love and life go I have allot to figure out, and while yes, I'm still young and there's plenty of time ahead of me, I'm a unique person in the head, the heart and personality, I may act like an immature, whiny, brat and spaz, but deep down I'm genuinely mature most of the time, especially in situations where I need to be, and it kills me to think that my life doesn't seem to be moving at a regular pace sometimes.....My maturity is stepping in and telling me to grow up and trying to just slap me in the face and fix everything that's wrong, so I think I should do that.

I might be ahead in the common sense department than most people my age, but at the same time, everyone my age seems so much further ahead in the life aspect, and generally you kind of need maturity to make it work out, but all this procrastinating, ignoring what's important and needs to be done and wishing I could just live my life like this forever isn't going to fly for much longer. So yeah....Dx That should be enough info for you guys, if not too much..Hopefully this is the one rant the important people read, and I'll be posting it on Facebook and Tumblr as well just in case you missed it, so that's your problem if you're spaz flailing at me in a couple of days because you haven't heard from me. Of course, like I said......watch me not be able to take the suspense and just kind of lurk anyway.......I don't know when this will start, but it won't be for too long hopefully...I just need some un-influenced time away form everyone and everything to figure out what I need to do and where I need to be, what's best for me, my heart, my head and everything else, and what I need to do to start advancing and stop this stand still I'm at......

I hope everyone can understand and know that this is nothing personal against anyone of you, it's simply me dealing with my indecision and insecurities to try and become a better friend, lover and person with a decent head on my shoulders...I'm tired of playing back and forth with everyone, especially myself....So it needs to end before I hurt people and myself further...Love you guys and I'll let you know when I'm leaving and for how long when I figure it out myself!~

I'd like to end on a decent note though, so here's another update, plans for Hamacon have changed again....xD;;;
I'm still going to do Tessa!~
I ordered my wig for her, and I ordered my uniform for Germany, but it sucks because now I have to get another wig, since mine came in too poofy!~ So new wig and Tessa cosplay should come up next pay check! Also got our World Cup Prussia and Germany ordered so I need to get the socks and shoes to finish those up and make a strap for my inhaler. =u=;

Alrighty guys...That being said...I update my list and bid you farewell until the next update!~
Well you know...Unless you're one of the ones that still needs to be thanked personally for favs and watches and stuff...So yeah!~ ;u;''' Later guys!~

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Hama-Con Panel Info

I'm running a Hetalia panel on Sunday morning at Hama-Con this year!~
We have an awesome cast and the casting is CLOSED!!!!!!!!!!

-Part scripted!
-Part HetaOni dicussion!
-Part Q & A! ( Q & A covers all ranged possible: historical, pairing and series in general! )

Cast

Germany - x-Cappy
Italy - shibonsen
America - TurtleSquirt76
England - angelic-o-wings
China - chuu-chan-aru
Russia - AmaranthBlacktree
Canada - MorticianaryKat
Prussia - Jiinxx101
Spain - Personal-Warhol
Romano - CaptainDorkus
France - AliceinIvory as a Special guest! She won't be there in person sadly, but she will....make a very special appearance! xD;
Japan - nikitachikita005 ??? ( We're not sure if she can yet. )

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2012 CONS I WILL BE ATTENDING

~~Kamicon; February 3 - 5 -- University of Alabama; Tuscaloosa, AL~~

Hama-Con; June 1 - 3 -- Von Braun Center; Hunstville, AL

AWA; September 28 - 30 -- Renaissance Waverly; Atalana, GA

Hama-Con Holiday Mini-Con; November 12th -- Hunstville, AL ( There is like a 99.9% I will attend as long as it's being held. )

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2012 COSPLAY PLANS AND PROGRESS